well, I'm not in connecticutt anymore and haven't been for some time, but I thought I'd keep the name the same since this summer has drastically impacted my life. I wanted to write about Seattle though and the fall here on the west coast. It's been so beautiful the past few weeks and so dark. I have been praying to see God's face and he has definitely been revealing himself to me, but with that I have become aware of the spiritual realm in a way that I was not before. I feel darkness around me and hopelessness and I see brokenness and despair. I know God is calling me to use my influence to combat this darkness, but it is draining. Tonight I felt the power of God through prayer in a way that I have only felt once in my life before, and I knew that as a Christian we have power when we pray. At the time its very invigorating and challenging but afterwards, I'm exhausted. It's like I've spent all my energy pouring my soul out to God and now I have no energy left. I need to be fed and to relax in his presence.